i'm fixed and so is smitten. i'll leave it up to you to guess whom this was for...
speaking of her, here's her arm as of today:
and here's the other one - if you look closely you can see the vague outlines of where she carved HAPPY in her arm in between the two currently prominent lines
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we're talking. she talks about having had sex with this guy. i ask her whether she used protection. she says no. then she says she doesn't remember.
i take her to planned parenthood right away and get her Plan B.
i was doing OK. sort of. sort of OK.
not anymore
i don't know what to do
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i kicked my son out.
i had given him notice of eviction and warning after warning and he refused to do any shit around here.
so i told him that if he wasn't prepared to do what he must - maybe it would be better for our relationship if he left.
he is trying to figure out where he will go.
because making sure that:
1) his laundry is off the floor (as in the living room floor - not even his room)
2) he does his own dishes and his friends' dishes instead of coming in, eating all my food, feeding his fuckwad friends, and then all of them leaving their dishes everywhere on every surface and on the floor - and then when i bitch about it saying "it was your choice to clean them up - i would have" but when i point out that dishes are often left for days he says "and it takes how long for you to clear enough space to work?"
3) i always have enough space to cook and eat
4) his dope paraphernalia is never left out and visible
5) they don't smoke dope in my apartment
6) friends are not allowed over after 11pm on days i work the next day
7) i always know where he is - he is to let me know
yeah - all of those brutal rules. strangling him.
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it doesn't get any better than this
6 comments:
ugh, i hope they can get some help...you can only work on you and be available to help them, they have to want to fix themselves too...that's why it's call 'tough love' i think, b/c it's so hard to dish it out.
Hang in there buddy, lots of love to you.
-lil'sis
Will it EVER end?
I'm proud of you for sticking to your word. I can't imagine how tough it it, though. No idea.
And your daughter? You are brave beyond words. My hope is that, in the future, she will choose a man (or woman) who has the guts, heart, and mind you've demonstrated to the rest of us out here in Blog Land over the years.
I am not exactly sure what to say to you Cad.. except hang in there and know that what you are doing is the right thing.. no matter how hard it seems at the time..
SoNot: thank-you. that is one of the nicest things anyone has ever said to me in my entire life
Catching up Cad. Geezo, you've put up with so much and still manage to stay strong and set a good example.
Hats off to you, my friend.
w.
I just cried looking at your daughters arms.
You must be dying a slow death inside.
I wish I had the right words...
CP
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