We're going to visit my parents over Christmas.
I look forward to the travel. To going places with my children. I'm pretty knotted up inside about travelling with Mrs_C.
We have been civil but somewhat distant.
The trip is over some distance (air travel), and I am not sure how Mrs_C will make it through the "stress" of airports and plane switching and so forth.
I travel and have travelled, she hasn't done much of that.
Mrs_C gets stressed about anything out of routine. She gets stressed about special occassions. She gets stressed about any situation where someone might "judge her".
God knows how this will work out.
One of our really big fights this summer before we had the first "conversation" was her trying to tell me how to pack and travel.
I finally had to say: "You know, I've been around the world a few times without you telling me what to do, and I made it through all by myself. I think I'm competant enough to decide what to pack."
(yes, I really have been around [whole way] the world a few times)
My kids are pretty excited and Mrs_C and I have agreed to make the trip the best we can for them, and for my parents.
This trip is one of the elements that kept things from flying apart totally in our marriage. We didn't want to take it away from our children. I could have gone with them without Mrs_C, but it would have put quite a damper on things. At one point earlier this month she was saying she would stay behind and prepare the house for sale while I went with the kids (see post: Monday, November 28, 2005, So, I got played - again). Not ruining the trip and Christmas for the kids was what made me buckle then.
I'm about to puke my stomach is so knotted up. Not from the trip, but from whatever fucking bizarre off the wall shit Mrs_C will spew.
Or maybe she won't. Maybe she'll be contained and constrained in her reaction.
Either way, I'll be warm for a few weeks and that's a good thing.
I'll get to show off my newly more svelte self to my family.
I'll get to go on a plane trip with my kids.
They're excited and so am I.
“All I want is for the baby to be healthy!”
8 months ago
2 comments:
Cool! I know it's not all going to be easy, but looking at the positives is a good start. :)
Thanks for the email about the new blog too. I've been swamped, but don't think I haven't been thinking about you, cause I have. Just not a lot of time to leave notes.
*hugs*
thanks lara
i know the hustle and bustle of family life and concerts at this time of year, shopping, and all the rest
then try to have a little "discreet" time alone with the computer...
thanks for thinking of me
i may have said it before, but i'll say it again
thank-you for caring, and thank-you for being my friend
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