i'm slipping over the edge
i really am having difficulty coping
between
my son's depression, school absences, and drug use (pot, salvia)
my daughter's dyed black hair, overuse of makeup, party attendance and drug use (pot, salvia)
my ex's screaming fits on the kids - which they have normalised - and ranting tirades keeping them up late at night and keeping them from going to exercise or doing just about anything
the insane amount of work in my classes
how hard the math and related stuff is
the pain i am still in (shoulder/arm)
that Smitten is so on edge because i am not giving her what she had before in our relationship (mostly because of all the fucked up shit coming from the ex and the kids)
the fact that i am so defensive around her now
my parents deteriorating relationship and my Dad's incessant calls about how my mom is being so hurtful to him
Dad's deteriorating health and mental condition
the change in weather - first snow a couple of weeks ago - temperature freezing overnight, up to about 50F daytime - grey skies
not exercising because of workload and perceived demands for my time from the kids and Smitten
an inability to concentrate
and the roaring return of my fibromyalgia
and so much more...
i'm slipping over the edge
(no - i'm not suicidal - just unable to cope)
“All I want is for the baby to be healthy!”
8 months ago
6 comments:
*Big sigh Cad* I know the feeling. I reached my limit and made an appt. to see my Doctor. I've been at the bottom before and know when I'm heading there again.
good luck and vent away here on your blog. It's good for you.
w.
Mr. C. . . if you can look back on your post now and see that your life has a lot of crap. I don't know how you are dealing with it. I don't know what to say except that you must not let the STBX win. . . . it is her goal to break you. . . . . keep plugging and oh how I wish you could get your kids away from her. It would provide some peace in your life.
Ciao
I agree with sicilian's comment.
Good luck with all this and please know that we care about you and your children.
(((hugs)))
wow..no fun.. first thing u must do is take care of you screw every thing else.. because if you do not have your health in control you can forget dealing with everything else... take it one issue at a time..
in whatever order necessary.. then the big picture does not seem so.. bleak...
talk to Smitten...
get a massage... take something to help ease your pain.. most importantly GET YOUR EXERCISE IN .. it helps with the pain!
i wish i had some wise words that would be helpful, but i don't. i'll second what honi, said, though.
take care of yourself. you can't handle any of this unless/until you do.
sending good thoughts your way...
Hi Cad, just checking in on you. Hope the skies are looking a bit clearer.
W.
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