lost

feeling a little lost

i am waiting for wednesday - my first day of classes (one class over the summer). perhaps that will ground me.

i feel like a kite being carried aloft with no string to ground it

this is perhaps the biggest flier i've ever taken

there's no landing spot

while i have made sure i am covered several ways for income

i am still feeling lost

i am not attached to any other unit than myself

there's just me here

i have my mom and dad

but i don't hang with them.

i have Smitten

but i cannot and will not hang everything on her

my kids are my kids - i will not rely on them for my place in the universe

i need to create the form of this new life

on my terms