feeling a little lost
i am waiting for wednesday - my first day of classes (one class over the summer). perhaps that will ground me.
i feel like a kite being carried aloft with no string to ground it
this is perhaps the biggest flier i've ever taken
there's no landing spot
while i have made sure i am covered several ways for income
i am still feeling lost
i am not attached to any other unit than myself
there's just me here
i have my mom and dad
but i don't hang with them.
i have Smitten
but i cannot and will not hang everything on her
my kids are my kids - i will not rely on them for my place in the universe
i need to create the form of this new life
on my terms
“All I want is for the baby to be healthy!”
8 months ago
3 comments:
It is a hard thing to do . . . . . what you are essentially doing is re-defining who you are. I would say the majority of us define ourselves by what we do. . . . or by our kids. . . . or spouse. . . . but now you are forced. . . . to be who you want to be. . . . it is really an open book Mr. C. . . . and you are the author.
Ciao
you will. it feels weird to be so untethered, but your new path will make itself clear in time.
i promise! been there.
thinking of you and wishing you well:)
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